Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Thankfulness




yesterday, someone asked me to tell the story about one of my six facts that i listed on my tagging exercise. it was the fact about my pregnancy...in which i said it was not confirmed that i was even pregnant until i was four months along. sounds weird, right? well, it's definitely a wild story...



PCD found out there was a little PCD in the oven on a thursday morning in early april. after many moments of disbelief, tears and jubilation mixed with fear, me and hubby started making plans to welcome whoever was in there. well, four days later, i started experiencing some difficulties. (in an effort not to startle anyone, i will spare the details). after a trip to the emergency room, i was told i was in the process of miscarrying. of course, i was devastated! and that night was horrible for me. after a few days, i decided that i should perhaps go to a new doctor to explore some new birth control options because i could not fathom the thought of experiencing that again. i went, he tested me and concluded that i was indeed done miscarrying, no longer pregnant and gave me my prescription. due to my worries, i did not fill it right away. i honestly wanted nothing to do with babies, baby prevention, baby production...so the prescription sat. in the meantime, i became very sad. i slept about 13-14 hours a day, every day. i ate one meal per day. it was usually mixed fruit. the idea and smell of food disgusted me. i lost 15 pounds and was ridiculously thin. by the end of may, i started experiencing some more difficulties in the reproductive area. so i made an appointment to go to the doctor. something told me to call the doctors at the hospital that i had visited a few months before.



they were full and since i was a new patient, i could not be seen for 3 weeks. by this time, my stomach had begun to protrude. it looked as if i had swallowed a basketball. i had convinced myself it was a tumor. how else could you explain the weight loss with no desire to eat, the fatigue, and the swelling of my stomach? well, i went in and told the doctor all of the happenings along with my theory of a tumor. she looked at me crazily. she asked me to take a pregnancy test and i complied. she came back in and told me it was positive. i dismissed her as saying that it must have been leftover hormones from my previous miscarriage. she chuckled and asked to listen to my stomach.



"that's a heartbeat!" she said. "WHOSE?" i asked. "not yours, its too fast." she replied. "YOU'RE PREGNANT!!! and by the look of your stomach, you're far along, so i need you to go here...here..here and here." i sat in a fit of hysterical laughter! i could not believe it! then i entered a state of panic. far along? enough to be visibly showing? i was worried because i had not taken any prenatal vitamins, i had an occassional glass of wine, i lifted heavy things, i lost a lot of weight and only ate fruit....then i crashed. how could this be?


after visiting all of the different departments, they concluded that i was four months along, completely missing my whole first trimester, which is the most important one! the baby, however 'looked' to be fine. i just had to have blood tests to conclude that. after all of the whirlwind, the doctor asked me more questions about why i thought the way i did and she went to the other wing of the hospital and got the report from the night i was told i miscarried. she discovered that while i did indeed miscarry, i was also still pregnant. originally, there were TWO BABIES! no one bothered to inform me...that was proven by the discharge papers i received that night.



you KNOW i was trying to sue the pants off of that place...but i had to wait to see if their negligence caused anything to be wrong with my baby. long story short, nothing was ever wrong with her so i had no case. but i must say that her birth has been one of the most amazing occurrences in my life. not only because she's just as fab as her momma PCD *wink* but also because of the crazy ride of my pregnancy. i missed the first 4 months, contracted gestational diabetes, AND had to lay on bedrest from august to november (UGH!) the point is that regardless to the insanity that is my story, my baby is beautiful, has NOTHING wrong with her and is extremely intelligent and personable. i could not be more thankful. only the Creator could have protected her and kept her thru all of that mess. and it could have gone soooooooooooo many ways, but it didn't and now i have this angel.









NAME A TIME WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN THANKFUL, WHEN THINGS WERE REALLY OUT OF YOUR CONTROL...AND NOT THE RAPPERS SPEECH LIKE "I'M THANKFUL FOR MY MOM OR FOR MY LIFE" we all are *snicker* BUT SHARE YOUR BRIEF STORY OF THANKFULNESS

24 comments:

The F$%K it List said...

ok i take back my statement I am a water head, that made me all teary eyed.

I think I was most thankful when my grandmother came home after having a mastectomy and a triple bypass. She is such a rock in our family that I am not sure any of us would be ok for a long time if something happen to her. She recently got her 5 year bill of health No cancer cells. She seems so very full of life since hearing that.

TravelDiva said...

Wow. Now that's a miracle! Thanks for sharing!

!*!*!*!*!Fresh and Fab!*!*!*!*! said...

thats amazing...

i think i was most thankful when, i found out that my little brother could come and live with us..... long story

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

congrats sista, bake it well

Miss Mika said...

Oh my goodness. That is such a touching and inspiring story. I am so glad that you shared it.

My most thankful moment certainly was when my son was born. Due to the abuse and stress that I was under because of my ex-husband, my pregnancy was difficult and my doctor was so concerned, he forced me to go on maternity leave early. I already was stressing over the idea of being a good parent, but to have those additional complications really worried me. Luckily after an induced labor, my son entered the world with no medical or health issues. He just turned 7 years old a couple of weeks ago. He is a true blessing in my life and I couldn't be more thankful that he is here, healthy and happy.

Great post!

AlooFar said...

I'm lovin' your blog.

Cheers.

Queen of My Castle said...

Awwwww, I'm so so happy to hear that things worked out well for you, the hubby, and that pretty Little Miss of yours. LOL. She's too cute. Makes me want a daughter...well, almost. I fear any daughter of mine would be ultra prissy. LOL. Your story alone makes me marvel even more than I already do at the awesomeness of God.

jameil1922 said...

that is an amazing story. thank you for sharing it. the day i was sitting in an office doing spreadsheets, knowing i couldn't do another day (it was only my 3rd day). i got a call from my current employer, the 70th (or so) resume for a job in my field, but first call & first interview. they told me i got the job!!!!!!!! THANKFUL!!!!

PCD (Pretty Circle Drawer) said...

@ F-it...definitely a thankful situations!

@ traveldiva...indeed!

@ F&F...truly amazing...and if you ever want to share, i'm listening!

@ torrance...lol-the brown martha stewart!

@ miss mika...so you understand the worry! unborn babies have got to be one of the most stressful things ever...and you haven't even met them and you'd do whatever for them :-)

@ aloofar...welcome to the circle...and thanx!

@ queen...nothing wrong with adding some priss to the prettiness-lol!!

@ jameil...you're welcome! and i know that feeling!

The Flyyest said...

WHAT. A. STORY. WHAT. A. MIRACLE.

THAT IS CRAZY....so you had twins and one miscarried....sad..

you have a beautiful girl too....i love that pic...


im thankful of waking up everyday jus knowing that God didnt have to wake me up

Keisha "Kitten" Isaacs said...

I was totally feeling you as you talked about the miscarriage and found tears forming in my eyes. I had a miscarriage in 1999 and 2004. The one in 2004 was twins. Before I knew it was two in there I dreamed someone put two babies in my hand and one floated away, but the little girl lived....When I found out it was twins I just knew my story would end like yours, but it I am still childless.....However, God's presence in my life became known after that situation so I still have thankfulness!

God bless your baby girl, she has a purpose and was determined to make her way into this world! Bless you....bless your husband...bless your family...I am truly touched and inspired by your story. It's just confirmation that my day will come when God says it is so!

PCD (Pretty Circle Drawer) said...

@ flyyest... i know! due to all of the madness, i never really was sad about the other twin. lil PCD is such a blessing that i am just grateful to have her...when i miscarried (before i knew she was still in there), i thought i'd never be able to have children, so i am over the moon about her :-)

@ keisha...first, welcome to the circle! furthermore, you my dear are the inspiration...because thru your ordeal, you still recognize the hand of God in your life and have faith, and THAT is a beautiful thing. you will definitely be rewarded for being steadfast and faithful. thank you for your lovely words *wink*

Still_Pocahontaz said...

Im Thankful for my relative Pooh. She really helped me hold together on my wedding day. Even after my mom got the drunkest and stormed out she made me feel like everything was going to be alright, whether it was running to the store for more drinks, paying the dj, buying my last minute what nots, she was just there...and I love her for that forever and always.

Still_Pocahontaz said...

Came back to say...aint GOD GOOD...the doctors say no all the time but GOD ALWAYS has other plans.

You know I adore your little princess...she was made from love and that is all that matters

Thanks for sharing..:WINK:

12kyle said...

Awwwwww...Hercules...Hercules... LOL. Seriously, that was a great story. It just shows you how great God is. Can I get an Amen from the congregation???

As the regining 8 time Father of the Year to the best 3 sons that a man could ask for...I'm definitely thankful for them. I'm also thankful to my wife who got up on that table and pushed them out (especially my middle son...he has a huge head like me...lol)

But if I had to give a "rapper shout out"...I'd be to my man, Dr. Cole. He was my professor at SOUTH CAROLINA STATE UNIVERSITY. He taught me financial management my senior year (1996). If he had not given me a 'C' (I prolly should've gotten a 'D')...I'd still be in college. LMAO!!! Real talk!

side note...PCD, where did u pledge?

PCD (Pretty Circle Drawer) said...

@ poca...ALL THE TIME!!! i would definitely agree with you!

@ 12kyle...AAAAAAAAAAAMEN!!! thats sweet. what we women do.....and i'm not telling! i don't want you finding pics of me from my college daze!

12kyle said...

Noooooo...I wouldn't do that to you.

Lemme change the question (since u r sooo protective of your secret pics...lol)
Did u pledge at an hbcu?

Keisha "Kitten" Isaacs said...

Thanks Sistah...that's my testimony..that is when I gave my life over to the Lord and started working for Jesus...tell you what..."Working for Jesus is pleasin, but it it ain't easy cause the devil be on a prowl..he got haters stationed in the crowd..shouting to crucify me out loud.." (lil excerpt from one of my songs on my cd)

Thanks for the warm welcome..I'm feeling blogland big time :)

idk... said...

you got me over here tearing up at work! I was having a bad day until I read this... this soo made my day! I'm soo happy everything worked out in the end!

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Lighty said...

but seriously, i am thankful for my mun, dad and my life though. that counts. lol!

well all i can say is the LORD IS GOOD! and dat little princess of urz is an absolute stunner.

Brown Girl Gumbo said...

What a true blessing!! Thanks so much for sharing such a personal and touching story with your PCD readers. I wanted to know more about this occurrence when you posted it in your "tagged" write-up, but I didn't want to pry.

I am so glad that your daughter is healthy and well. You're right, only the Creator could have protected her. What a wonderful story!!

PCD (Pretty Circle Drawer) said...

@ 12kyle - :-P

@ keisha...you are serious with the poetics! loves it!

@ mp3...thank u and welcome to the circle! i'm headed to your spot in a few :-)

@ lighty...welcome to the circle! and HE is soooooooooo good! and thank u!

@ bgg...awww! i love your way with words! a girl after my own heart. as my mum would say, "you're very mannerly" :-) i am so thankful that i felt i could share my blessing with others *smile*

Kitty said...

What an amazing story PCD.
I can be thankful for my health and my family. I had a cancer scare last year and it was soo stressful. 2 of my relatives had died of the same type of cancer that I had that year and everyday I wondered if I was next. I'm not completely out of the woods but the most recent results have been looking pretty good. So thank God, Jesus and everyone for that! :)